Tuesday, January 12, 2010

1 hour shy of my first 24 hours as a mom of two sweet boys and I'm nothing short of completely overwhelmed.

The first night I remembered being tough with Dealey but this was a whole different experience. I am NOT a fan of c-sections. I hate that I'm so dependent on the nurses and Matt. I can't console my baby because I can't move, I can't change him or swaddle him very effectively and it's just gives you such a feeling of defeat. One thing that is going well is feeding. When Cohen latched on the first time just after we got out of the O.R. I got so excited because that one time was more than we were ever able to get Dealey to latch on. It's been as good as I could have expected it to be and I'm clinging to those very moments of joy during feeding to get me through these first few days.

I know it's all natural but friends I need your prayers to make it through this. How will I make it all happend that's the question that keeps running through my mind....Pray for wisdom and the ability to release. I look forward to sharing this journey with you guys. Each of your love, support, wisdom and friendship are true life lines for me! Thank you.

I honestly didn't know how I was going to feel about Cohen, I mean I knew I'd love him but I just love my Dealey so much it's hard to imagine having such intense love for another little one, but how could you not when they're this sweet?


wilderlamb said...

I love you guys and of course will be praying for you! You can do it!

The McKays said...

you CAN do it. after a few weeks, you will define a new normal. hold on to this; it will help. i love you and i'm praying. i'm a phone call away. xoxo